Challenging myself

Today in acting 101. I joined it because I wanted to challenge myself in a new way. In a way I had never challenged myself before. Just as I thought it is a challenge like when I used to run cross country and run battle people. It has become an epic for me every time I go in. I am learning something new everytime.

The reason I joined this is because I do not understand people. I do not understand what goes on the way I want. That is why I am doing it and I am getting what I wished for. When I feel good because I have done good I feel great, epic, empowerd, and when I come across something that I am not good at time seems to stand still in hell. This is what I want to create a change in myself.

What I have found is that I know how to battle. I know how to be the stalker, murderer, warior, the guy who dives head into the brawl when it is presented. It is good that I know this but that seems to be where it ends as far as how I know how to act.

I want to know what it means to love, be confident, charming, and the postive aspects of human interaction. How to convince, inspire, lead, and etc.

This is leading to where I want to be as a person.

The new generation economy

What is this generation about. So far it seems as if for my entire life there has not been bountiful places to generate experience or skill or to gain real experience very easily. It has become very apparent to me that those things must be created by our generation.

As a white male in the typical white setting my parents did not want me working on my car in the garage. When I went to the University of Arizona I discovered that I did not want to be an Architect, when I came back to San Diego  I tried my hand at the concept of engineering. My last career interest was commercial diving. I am now attempting my hand at glass blowing, casting, movie production, and graphic design, as well as some other pursuits over time. I do not know if they are what I want but it is my next step.

Back to what I mean by thrifty and what I said at the beginning. Knowing that things have elevated in price, past successful generations are less likely to hire or train, if even minimum wage jobs. Community colleges and other forms of universities including the big ones offer the best form of minimum wage jobs. They also offer shelter from debt on certin types of loans. This means that the University system can be used as the best way to gain certain assets in this new economy. I do not know what type of economy it is. All I know is that it requires a type of resourcefulness.

I am not saying that everyone falls into this category but what I am saying is that for the people who are currently struggling it means that in order to make things better you must do it differently than the methods currently generating the difficulty. Something also to remember invention is not the same as innovation. Invention means to create something new and innovation means to alter or to change something slightly in order to make it more effective. For instance an added shell onto a cellphone does not make the purpose of the cellphone better but it does solve issues directly related to it. It preserves it s value and protects it from the elements including yourself.

Just like the shell for the cell phone protects it from the elements my goal is to do the same thing. My current idea that I am trying are online. I have been helping my friends and family advertise and cell there possessions. I have filed for financial aid but to me that does not necessarily count because that was not generated through my own efforts. To me it is not in exchange for something valuable. But it is what I am using and need at the moment. Need in the since that I want input on my ideas and a place to put them.

One of my ventures is this blog. This blog on its own is not what is valuable although it is very valuable to me. It is teaching me how to market myself and others, it is teaching me how to think and articulate how to take the next step. Having a skill is still necessary but how it is delivered must change. I feel as though e-commerce combined with a personal experience is the key. I do not necessarily know if that means to have a physical location. If that means to combine an online store with a face through business cards and a physical presence. Does it mean everything? Or does it mean that there needs to be steps? If so what steps need to be taken from beginning to end?

There is no sure solution just like anything else. The best strategy is to practice and then once you have come to the challenge to face it with separate strategies. Which ever strategies that do not work are not bad they are simply a poor counter for the given situation. For instance just because the same thing is not working in a different economy does not mean that we can not be successful in it.

My biggest question is how other people are thriving in this economy?

Man to Man friendships

http://artofmanliness.com/2008/08/24/the-history-and-nature-of-man-friendships/I am as a person starting to realize what it means to have quality friends because for the first time in my life I have some. For a long time I have based friend ships through a lense of greed and lust. Which people could get me into the best parties and which ones could help me become better at whatever it was I wanted to become more skilled at. And only for that fact. It is the difference in thinking for me at least that in order to have a good life and to survive this world you must learn how to be ruthless and find out how to discover other people that are ruthless. I have walked around this world thinking that other people had the same frame of mind. I assumed that everyone wants to take you. Meaning your money, friends, girls, and your lively hood. Though this may not be far from the truth how you see the world makes all the difference. It enables you to change the way in my mind probability works for you. The way you roll the dice if you will.

I was talking to my girlfriend about it. She is the only solid reason why I have developed this change of heart. Not that one talk did this. Its been due to me watching as things unfold between her and her friends. To be honest I have had no dependable friends, people who would look out for me, in fact they would ditch me at the first site of something better to do. Ditch as in not take me into any consideration and leave with out telling me.

Now I can not blame them for their choices. I can blame myself for my own and choose to make better ones in the future. My desire is to filter friends based off of dependability, adventures, acepting, with the ability to stand up for themselves.

I don't want anymore friends that will use me as a stepping stone, that don't tell me what I can do to help them, that wont help me, or that don't care in general. I think that's what I am subject to as a guy. This site puts the concept of manships into perspective as well as other things to help men be men.

Women and emotional clingyness

Caitlyn and I one day were on the subject of relationships. I told her that at one point in time I had considerd going out with another one of our friends but was scared off because I had the sense that she would turn into a living nightmare for me in terms of needyness, intamecy, and other emotional needs. When Caitlyn asks me why that is a problem and I tell her its because for me as a guy its like stepping into a shower that has been turned up to hot. Making me want to jump out and cool it down or simplty dismiss her or ignore her. The point being that she gave me signs that she would not control herself.

I'm looking for peoples thoughts so comment bellow and let me know what you think.

Actually good instructions for crazy at home projects

The best site for at home projects would be instructables.com. When I wanted to start brewing I went here. When I wanted to make a potato launcher I went here. Its a great and usually cheap way to do something new that is fun. The projects very on you and your ability to find and purchase the supplies. check them out and let me know what you think.

Where to buy the cheapest and best stuff on the web

For the weird people who like to pay full price on things that they could be getting half to even greator saving on the same stuff this post is not for you.

Between talking to my sister and random conversations about where to buy anything on the web from extreme sports gear to everyday clothes. This post will never be complete because I will continue to add to it over time. 

If you want to buy everyday great stuff mostly luggage, backpacks, jewelry, and whatever other everyday stuff that you may need. Two sites are standing out to me. Those are Zappos.com and Overstock.com because not only do most if not all the products have some sort of % off of their products and are a good price to begin with but their shipping is next to nothing which is the biggest issue when it comes to buying things off the web. For instance if I were to ship a pair of shoes from another site instead of it being 1$ or nothing it could be 20$. Imagine this for bigger items or heavier items. For an example I purchased some dive weights off of a dive site and had them mailed to me. The shipping cost as much as the weights. The weights being like 50$ coming to a total of 100$ and some change. 

More ways to make money on the web

Like I have said in past articles this is my first time really checking out the online medium. I was looking at other ways to make money off the internet with out knowing any real hard skills. Something that you can do is a gaming site. You do not nesisarily need to make a game. You can add flash games that have already been made and add them to your site. Most games have adds and if the one that you added does not then you can still place an add and get something like .10$-.25$ per person so many people who play the game. Check out this eHow article for more info http://www.ehow.com/how_4901040_money-flash-games.html